It's April 2nd...

Hi friends!

It's April 2nd, which is no special day in my world. Just April 2nd. But hi :)
Life has been kinda rough these past few months. One of my uncles got into some deep trouble after drinking, driving, which led to him flipping and totaling his truck and being found unconscious. I don't feel sorry for him. He's obviously never going to learn his lesson. A cousin of mine (in which I do not affiliate) has been writing fraudulent checks... so I'm just waiting to see what comes of that.

Nothing much has changed. I haven't done much cooking lately... I think I need some of that. The weather in Kenosha is FINALLY starting to warm up. I love winter more than anything, but I'm ready for a warm stretch. I have all of these big plans of jogging and walking and getting in shape, which would do me a lot of good, but I think I've faced the fact that I'm always going to be big. Much bigger than the majority of people my age, but I think I handle it pretty well, and aside from my weight I'm as healthy as a horse, so I can deal with it. Moving on.
I don't know. I think I'm still at that stage in life where you think "oh I'm going to be single forever and ever and ever."  Which may be true. I wouldn't necessarily mind that. I've come to the realization that if I were ever to be "with" somebody (which may or may not mean marriage), they would have to be in theatre or do some sort of intense fine art to understand my schedule. It's thoughts like this that keep me occupied throughout the day. Here's a list of things that keep me from dating people.
Lack of:
1) Attractiveness
2) Confidence
3) Trust
4) "coolness"
5) Happiness

I'm not pretty. It's just a fact. I don't mind too much. I'm starting to learn not to give a fuck what people think of my face or my body. Would I like to change it? Sure, but I don't have the time, money, or need to. Therefore it's staying as is. Confidence is an iffy topic. I've got guts. Lots of them. I'm a leader, a captain, a director. I can take charge. I can speak publicly with no problem whatsoever. But when it comes to relationships... I'm a mess. Haha :P It's true! People trust me. If someone has a problem, they come to me because they know they can trust me. I like being the trustworthy one. But I have a real hard time trusting people. I trust people too much. Or maybe some people are just too easy to talk to. I'm just afraid I'm going to be hurt. I've been stabbed in the back, screwed over, and used too many times to count. I'd do anything for anybody. I'd give you the shirt on my back if you needed it. But I've come to find that most people wouldn't do the same. I'm not the coolest kid in school. I don't want to be the cool one. I want to be the successful one. And when it comes to happiness, I can be the happiest person you see. But it's not all giggles and smiles and jokes. I can pull the mask down for the day, but at the end of the day, when the mask comes off, reality is back and it's so hard not to break down. When one parent is screaming and the other one sobbing, you know who has to keep the straight face in my household? Me. Do you know how hard it is to keep that face on? Taking everything that happens around me (and trust me, it's a lot) into consideration, it's REALLY hard. But that's not to say that I don't have good days, because I have had a lot of good days. Those good days are days that my family isn't around and that I can be by myself. That says a lot. I'm not trying to gain attention or sympathy, I just wish that someone out there could understand. That's all I ask. Oh, and I also ask that this generation pull their heads out of their asses as a whole and make a brighter day. Now I'm done for tonight... it's 12:45 (so now it's April 3rd :P ) and I haven't slept in a REALLY long time (like 3 days). I'd like a little sleep, thanks. Good night Jupiterians. I love you!

My Dear Friend Batman

Hello all.

I am very sad to announce that I will be euthanizing my dear pet Batman in the next couple of days. You see, he has some swim bladder infection disease thing and red spots at the part of each fin where it connects to the torso, along with inside the gills. I can't stand to see my finned friend suffer any longer, therefore I feel as though the right thing to do is put him out of his misery. I'll miss him dearly. It's no different than putting down a dog or a cat, or having to say goodbye to a loved one in person. I'll be losing a member of my family, and more importantly, a piece of my heart.

I hate to end this on an angry note, but I have one comment to make. I bought Batman at PetSmart. I don't know if my readers out there (or lack thereof) have a PetSmart store in their area, but I was in their store once and in the live fish section, I counted 23 dead fish in 1 and 25 in another. All of the other fish in other tanks, and I mean ALL of the other fish, either had fin rot or ich. It was an absolutely horrible sight to see. I still remember this image clearly. I posted on their facebook page about the incident, and all they replied was a website that talks about how to keep MY HOME TANK clean. That's a bunch of bullshit. I keep my tank as clean as humanly possible. They're in no position to tell me how to clean MY tank when it's theirs that has tons of dead fish in it. So I will no longer buy ANYTHING from PetSmart as long as I shall live.

I'll miss Batan more than anything. I'll miss coming home from school and work to see him follow me around his tank as I maneuver through my bedroom. I'll miss feeding (overfeeding.. guilty is charged) him and clapping when he'd finish a flake (Where did that come from?). I'll miss talking about my best friend. I'll miss having somebody to talk to when no one else would listen. I'll never know if he loved me or the food I gave him twice a day, but I hope he'll remember as he watches over me that I love him more than anything and that he will always have a special piece of my heart reserved for him.

Gosh I'm tearing up just typing this. On that note, I will leave you all to do your thought pondering thing. I'm on Tumblr... in case you didn't know.
ivemanagedthat.tumblr.com

I don't really post much, but you should follow me or like me or whatever you do on there anyway because I love you all.

Updateness

Hello all,

Just thought I'd fill you fine folks in with what's been happening lately. I got another offer from a director at the local theater. This weekend is the closing weekend for James and the Giant Peach. It was a fun journey. I have 3 more shows then it's over :/ But I know a ton of people coming to see it. So I'm excited.

To bring on the sadness, I'm losing my best friend. She got a "boyfriend" (but she denies it every time) back in November and we've barely said a word to each other since. We used to be inseparable. Sleepovers every weekend (we had an 11 weekend streak going for us). Giggles and laughs 24/7. But then this guy came around and I feel as though he's stealing her from me. They've been attached to each others hip since November. It's like we're two strangers sitting across the table from each other. She's talking to him, I'm just there. It's so frustrating. I've tried to explain how I feel to her, but it's as though it goes in side and out the other. Does anyone have advice? I'm just kinda done with it all. Just. yeah.
   Moving on
Welp, I guess there's nothing to move on to. I've been so busy with work and school I haven't had much time for anything. I got my high school acceptance letter, so this girl will be a freshman at LakeView Technology Academy this fall. I work with an amazing lady up in the balcony at the local theater. She's hilarious. Just thought I'd add that in here. I've been on a Michael Buble run lately. Crazy Love: Hollywood Edition CD1 <3 My pride and joy.

So I'm on Tumblr. now... I never use it. I just read Backstage Badger. But feel free to follow me or whatever you do on there. I should probably know...     http://ivemanagedthat.tumblr.com/

Thanks Loves
-Sam K

So...

Hello all,

I thought I'd just fill you all in on my intellectual badassness and what not. I quit twirling, so my title is now rather worthless. But it still teaches a huge lesson. DO NOT TWIRL IN THE HOUSE. Please :) I got my first job (some people may call it an internship) the other day and yesterday was my first day. So I got to the theatre (Rhode Opera House in Kenosha, WI) through the back door (feeling badass bro). I met the director and the stage manager and some other people. The director gave me a tour. I got to go up to the box. That shit's fucking awesome. The coffee stains on the carpet and the unfinished wood. And there's no glass between the box and the theatre, so I can actually hear what's going on. I'm a light/tech person. Just kidding. I'm a superior human. So eff everything. But back to my story. I keep losing focus. I hate about 99% of kids shows, yet I always end up laying around doing absolutely nothing but watching them. Now I shall attempt to get back on track. So the guy I'm supposed to work with wasn't there last night. So the guy that programmed the light board showed me how to work it. Seemed simple. I had to come 3 hours before we were to start, so I got to mark my script. Fun, right? So I was like 3 pages from finishing when we started. We went through the first maybe 20 minutes then the Kenosha news came to take pictures. That took an hour. So it was like 8pm and I had to leave at like 9:30. We were only like 4 or 5 scenes into the show. So we skipped over the majority of it and on to Act 2 scene 8. We were at the part where there's a reverse cyclone and Dorothy ends up back in Kansas (Wizard of Oz). Something went wrong so no one did anything. I had the cyclone lights going the whole time, and everyone decided that they'd just start talking. So no one did anything prouctive for like 20 minutes. The director originally planned that we'd be out of there by 9. I didn't get out until just after 10. But I loved my first day of work. That is all.

2 Cents on Life

Hello everyone! I was just thinking about something, and I thought I would share it with you. I was thinking about myself. About what I do. About my friends. I am so thankful for what I have. I am fortunate enough to have a best friend who is there for me through EVERYTHING. I was able to get my hands on the opportunity to do what I love. So I guess instead of my 2 cents on life, I have a piece of advice, and one of those silent little thank you's to some people, along with a wish. I wish that everyone finds something they love, and they do it. And if you find you like something, don't be afraid to do it. I am being tested for the next week to see if I can join the next level of my baton twirling corp. And yesterday on my way   home from practice, I was so tired, overworked, and nervous, that I just cried. All the way from Zion to Kenosha. But I want this too much to give up now. I've spent the last 11 months of my life practicing my butt off to get this opportunity, and I'm not going to let it fall through the cracks. I am going to work my absolute hardest this next week to make sure that I can accomplish my goal. I hope that someone will come across this and find that working hard makes dreams come true. Finally, here's a thank you to all of my friends from corp that are cheering me on during practice. Here's a thank you to my best friend for putting up with my insaneness, my clumsiness, and for listening to me when I need you. If you were to read this best friend, I hope you know that I'm here for you too, but I think you know that ;)


I don't quite know why I thought of this when I did... probably because I just came home from my best friend's house from a sleepover, and that I went on pinterest and saw all of the things that I pin. Speaking of Pinterest.... Here's the link to my account... I mostly pin (repin?) DIY stuff, recipes, and random stuff that looks cool :) On that note, have a good Sunday everyone!

http://pinterest.com/samidracomalfoy/

I'm Slacking

Why hello there fine people of Earth and Jupiter! No one reads this blog so I mean, it's not like any of you guys are human or anything :) On to the point. I've been (obviously) slacking in the world of blogging. Why? Because drama kicks in in 8th grade. I haven't posted since before my birthday, which was back in September. That's kind of sad. But oh well! I just wanted to let everyone know that there will be some DIY's coming up soon! I need ideas as to what to try though. I wanted to make a chandelier.... we shall see how that goes. And of course in time for the holidays, I will have some kick-butt Christmas cooking recipes too :) But until then, farewell until tomorrow afternoon!

My Favorite Recipes

Hey Guys!!! So I was on Pinterest about 10 minutes ago... it's storming like crazy outside so I can't be practicing. But I was looking through my Food and Drink board, and I found a few recipes from other pinners and bloggers that I thought I would share with you all. I really look forward to trying them in my free time this upcoming fall.

APPLE CIDER CARAMELS
http://blondiescakes.blogspot.com/2010/12/apple-cider-caramels.html
Originally from Our Best Bites

MARSHMALLOW FONDANT
http://seddy5.typepad.com/blog/2010/05/how-to-make-marshmallow-fondant.html

MONSTER COOKIE CUPS
inspired by Cookies and Cups Ultimate Cookie Cup  
http://thedomesticrebel.com/2012/04/16/monster-cookie-cups/